My entire life I have been unduly afraid of mice. You can put me in a room with an agitated grizzly bear before you can with rodent. I haven’t had an extreme experience and/or an encounter with a rodent that was traumatizing. My fear has surrounded the fact that they aren’t easy to catch. I would nightmare about if one was to run up my body and I would squirm around trying to catch it…with no success.
There is a mouse at work…
He/she LOVES my office. I find the droppings on my desk in the morning. The exterminators have been out to address the issues with no progress.
I saw him run out of the garbage and I jumped onto the kitchen table. I stayed on the table, shaken with fear, for what seemed like an eternity. The second time I saw him, he poked his head out of a small hole in the wall. I nearly passed out. But I was more angry than afraid. The office is clean and there are no snacks available so why the hell is he constantly coming back? The third time I saw Mickey the damn mouse I closed myself in the office with him and chase him with a broom. I tried to knock his head off. I was tired of being scared….
There is no “Fourth time”. I haven’t seen him but if I do, I don’t have time to be scared. That doesn’t mean that I won’t be. It means that the fear cannot outweigh my desire to simply work without disruption. I am determined to get rid of the mouse and fear will simply stifle my advancement to that goal.
My relationship with mice has taught me a thing or two about life. It is okay to be afraid. But it is not okay to allow fear to cripple, paralyze, or distract you from the ultimate goals you have set forth for yourself. You can actually use the fear to propel you into your future.
Who do you want to be? What’s stopping you from being that person? What are you afraid of?
If you function as if you have moves to make…you will make moves. I have not accomplished as much as I have wished because I have been afraid of failure when my only other option was to be attacked by a “mouse” sized problem.
Regardless of if you know if you can do it or not pushing through is necessary.
In the words of Sarah Jakes Roberts so many of us have been pregnant with purpose for far too long. You push through the fear… and watch God pull you through.
photo credit: https://ginasoleil.com/2015/07/21/acts-of-compassion/